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#1: wonderwall by oasis because maybe, youre gonna be the one that saves me. seriously though. as you know too well, I have a lot going on with me. ive got my issues, and im quite messy and confused about life, but youre so stable. youre kinda like the guiding light that i needed. the road is winding, and the lights are blinding, but its all easier to navigate with you by my side. so thank you. it took some help, but i feel saved.

#2: love. by kid cudi. give it a listen. the lyrics resonate with me. sometimes i wonder why i am the way i am, why am who i am and how i am. what did i do to deserve being so messed up and awful. but honestly, its okay. "i am happy to be alive" and i am, i have so much love to give and i have someone in my life who deserves so much love. and you have so much love for me, and i deserve it too. "youll be okay, youll find real love" and i am okay, i did find it.

#3:under pressure by queen & david bowie particuarly the david bowie solo,"and love dares you to care for the people on the edge of the night and love dares you to change our way of caring about ourselves", which i wholeheartedly believe. love dared to change my way of caring about myself, and im better for it. so thank you.

#4: bless the telephone by labi siffre because it got me through your tdys. i missed you so deeply and it was hard but talking on the phone made it easier. you were only a phone call away. while i was goofing around at our house, you were off doing important work stuff lol.

#5: what i like by charli xcx listen to it, ik you dont know it. i remember i posted it one time on my notes, because of the part thats like "found the guy i want the rest of my life with, we on some husband and wife shit". because i have, and we are. i remember you told me when you asked me to be your girlfriend, you told me that you called me "the wife" to the guys". im pretty sure that made me cry more.

#6: aint no mountain high enough by marvin gaye and tammi terrell because there really aint anything i wouldnt do for you. i love you so much that i overcame my aversion to physical activity to play pickle ball with you lol. but in all seriousness, there isnt anything that could stop me from getting to you, because i love you very berry much.