jujubear!

about me!

• age: 17
• pronouns: she/her
• grade: senior :3

im a little cutie patootie fr. i love to listen to music, crochet and read. i am learning html and css, and python!

my current favorite things

• books: normal people by sally rooney and everything i know about love by dolly alderton
• movie: (500) days of summer
• tv shows: the sopranos and succession
• songs: asleep by the smiths, freak by lana del rey, and when you're gone by the cranberries
• colors: light pink and navy blue
• animal: cat
• scents: vanilla, black cherry, and coffee in the morning
• flowers: tulips and peonies

songs i have on repeat:

give em a listen and get a glimpse into my mind!

• practice by drake
• trust issues by drake
• cameras / good ones go interlude by drake
• pyramids by frank ocean
• end of beginning by djo
• bbm baby by lana del rey (unreleased)
• haunted by beyonce
• i know it's over by the smiths

currently reading:

all about love by bell hooks

currently watching:

tv shows

• abbott elementary
• the sopranos
• derry girls

movies

i don't always have the time to sit down and watch a movie, end to end, so typically, i'll watch it bit by bit. if a movie is on this list, i'm in the process of watching it.

• 2 fast 2 furious (and eventually, the rest of the series)
• buffalo 66
• the perks of being a wallflower

current productions:

• acting: scenes from much ado about nothing by william shakespeare - margaret
• tech: lovers, lunatics, and poets by kelly mcallister - stage manager

my socials!

insta

• main: @julie.c.hr
• spam: @stripedcathat
• exclusive vip spam: @jujubear3.0

miscellaneous

• tiktok: @lovejujubear
• pinterest: @lovejujubear

me at any given moment

words of wisdom from jujubear

in my seventeen years, i have experienced a lot. through these experiences, i've learned many valuable lessons.* this segment intends to give you, dear reader, some advice on various topics. although, please keep in mind- i don't always (ever) follow my own advice.

*note- most advice, especially that which pertains to boys, has been aqcuired through careful observation of others and their sometimes questionable life choices.
i feel that, as an outside observer, i can maintain an unbiased opinion while still delivering relevant advice.

• be cautious when trusting boys. they may exhibit behavior that seems to imply that they like you for who you are and no other reason (...), but that is not always the case. it's a troubling truth that every girl needs to learn early in life, as not to get hurt later on.


• if you do decide to pursue a guy, despite my pleas otherwise, guard your heart. don't let him know how much you like him. it'll just make it hurt all that much more when he still decides that he doesn't like you. don't show him your whole hand- only bits and pieces. you can show him that you like him but never more than he shows you. it's only fair.


• following up on that last point- don't ever tell your friends about a guy. i know you really want to. fight the urge. it's not worth it- you'll talk on and on about him and then, out of nowhere, he'll lose interest. you'll be embarrassed and hurt and, just when you think you're over it, your friends will ask about him and you'll hang your head low like a sad, unloveable puppy, while you dissect what you might've done wrong.


• take the time to evaluate your actions and absorb some blame. although it may be difficult, it is important to remember that there are always two sides to every story. as much as i would love to tell you that all boys are evil and are the villian of every story, even i know, that is simply not true. if you're in a particularly troubling situation (regarding a boy), look inward, see where you might've gone wrong and fix it. no one, regardless of how evil or villainous, will want to hang out with you if you can't accept blame for any of your shortcomings.

if you are reading the above and are a boy, just know that i don't hate the male species or anything like that. things just get to be a bit frustrating sometimes. as much as i try, i can never seem to understand how you guys think or why you do the things you do (as i imagine many people feel about me and about girls as a whole).

i intend to maintain this segment and add nuggets of wisdom as they come to me, so keep an eye out for more!

julie's hard-no's in life

life is often filled with things that we will and will not do, some big and some small. the following are a collection of some of my niche (and not-so niche) hard-no's (things i will not do (or don't plan on doing anytime soon)), organized with anedcotal evidence.

• vaping. vaping, for either gender, is super cringe, but for different reasons.
• as a man, you have no self respect if you vape. ladies- imagine you see a really hot guy and you're about to go up to him and ask for his socials, and then he pulls out his cotton candy elf bar. any self respecting woman would immediately get the ick. it's girly, in the most derogatory manner possible. if you're craving nicotine that bad, just smoke a cigarette. at least you won't be breathing in heavy metals.
• as a woman, vaping is trashy. you clearly don't care about your body or what you put in it- an objectively unattractive trait. plus having popcorn lung isn't cute, so just don't do it. my argument for why women shouldn't vape is more so out of concern for their health rather than out of judgement, mostly due to the fact that i am, after all, a girls girl. however, i cannot deny the fact that i do judge girls, just a little, when i find out they vape. it's gross.


• pre-marital sex. for many of you reading this (my three friends), you won't at all be shocked by this being on the hard-no list. just the idea of one day having sex terrifies me, and for that reason, i am content waiting as long as possible. i will 100% admit that it's not really a religious thing and more of a "i don't think i'll ever be ready" thing. but regardless of the reason, it's the path i'm on and i'm not the only one. i've confided in my girl friends and they shared similar fears and worries. so at least i know i'm not alone. (and completely honestly, i 'm not necessarily waiting until marriage, just waiting. but saying i'm waiting until marriage is much easier than saying i'm waiting until i'm ready, for a reason i cannot explain.)


• making the first move. i know it seems old-fashioned but it's true (and its not for old-fashioned reasons). i absolutely will not make the first move (within reason (i'll elaborate in a sec)). as an anxious girl, i fear many things. rejection is one of those things. i hate the idea of putting heart on the line and being told no. it's the worst feeling in the world, and i speak from experience when saying this. anecdote time! once, on the thesp. fest trip, i worked up the courage to go up to a cute guy and ask for his insta. however, before i could even get my whole "hi i saw you and i thought you were really cute" speech out, he said "sorry i have a girlfriend". he wasn't even really rejecting me for anything i had done and i was still absolutely crushed. i hated how it made me feel and, partly for that reason, i will never ask a guy out or tell him i like him or anything of that sort without him sayin it first. however, if he's made it abundantly (and i mean without a shadow of a doubt) clear that he likes me, i might (hard might) tell him i like him, just so that i can hear him say it back. but, ofc, given my relative lack of experience with boys, i don't plan to make the first move anytime soon. im just a girl. i'm perfectly content staying sad and single if it means i don't face the chance of rejection.


• having a roster. this one is kinda obvious. it's mostly a moral thing, but there's also the whole talking to boys thing. i try not to judge people but i absolutely do judge anyone who has a roster and is proud about it. the notion that one could be entertaining multiple people at once and content with themselves is beyond me. but besides that reason, i also would never have a roster because it seems incredibly stressful. i overthink every text i send (and recieve) to a boy, i can't imagine that times ten. plus what does one do if the guys (or girls, for any fboys reading) know each other? how do you manage to keep it a secret? or do they openly let people know they're just apart of the team? even just the logistics of maintaining a roster stress me out, i can't imagine that plus actually talking to the guys and keeping them interested. above all else, i would never put myself in the position where i could be called a "bop" and it be true. i would like to mention that while i am opposed to the use of the word "bop", i also don't want to be called one.


• being in a situationship. ok, we're kinda veering into the funnier hard-no's but still. i don't even know how to identify a situationship, let alone be in one. it seems far too confusing and complicated for me, as an (aforementioned) anxious girl. just the thought of being in a relationship-not relationship, where there is no defining labels other than "its complicated", is terrifying. and even if i managed to enter a situationship, i would never ever in a million years admit that i was in a situationship. imagine telling someone "oh yea, im in a situationship with him. he doesn't really care about me and he's definitely seeing other girls, but i really like him. and sometimes he compliments me". i'd actually die laughing if someone, pridefully, told me they were in a situationship. with that being said, the likelihood of me being in a situationship is slim to none so i'm sure i'll never have to deny being in one nor will i have to go through the retrospective shame that i imagine comes along with it. lol

julie's hard-yes's in life

similarly to my hard-no's, i have many things in life that i will and won't do. the following are a collection of some of my niche (and not-so niche) hard-yes's (things i won't ever stop doing (or don't plan on stopping anytime soon)), organized with anecdotal evidence.

• drinking energy drinks. yes, i know it's bad for you. but quite honestly, i don't really care. and yes, i know this make me seem like a bit of a hypocrite given my take on vaping but it's just how i feel. drinking energy drink is far less severe than vaping (or smoking, for that matter) could ever be, and it's delightful. the beautiful pop the can makes when you open it, the crisp refreshing flavors, the soft fizzing of carbonation bubbles. everything about the experience is magical. plus, it's a habit i can't really kick. i don't feel alive if i haven't had caffeine. plus, there's so many great choices in terms of flavor, who wouldn't want to drink an energy drink everyday. but i also do it in moderation, so it's not as bad for me as it could be (but i suppose that could be said about anything..) lol


• giggling with my girls. i absolutely adore chitchatting with the people i love. we could be saying the most vile things (and sometimes, we are), and i would still enjoy every second of it. chitchatting is truly one of life's greatest joys, and i often pity the boys who don't get to it in the way girls do. they don't get to be joyous and giggly in the way that girls do and its tragic. but also.. boys are kinda evil so maybe it's for the best. side bar: i often see those tiktoks where the boys are like "oh if girls knew what we said in the gc" and like.. if boys only knew what girls said in the gc.. they'd die. i said more insane things than one could ever imagine. but it's all in good fun. my point being... boys are cringe edgelords who couldn't begin to fathom the inner workings of my mind.


• disliking the male species. okay so remember when i said that i don't hate men... i may have been fibbing (just a tad). truthfully, i don't know how i feel about boys, i just know that they, often, unsettle me with the things they do and say. i feel alliegant to women as a whole, and as women have been wronged by men for the entirety of human history, i often harbor contempt. although, i do recognize that one should not have to pay for the sins of those who came before them. so yea. but overall, i do tend to villainize boys (just a bit) in my mind. and i don't plan on stopping anytime soon. and honestly, i imagine that many girls feel similarly on the the topic, so it's not really that big of a deal. its just the female experience.

that's all i could think of at the moment, but i'll add more as they come to me.

ranked list of energy drinks i've tried

1. classic redbull
2. sugarfree redbull
3. summer edition redbull (juneberry)
4. kiwi guava celsius
5. fiji apple pear celsius
6. coconut redbull
7. alani nu blue slush
8. alani nu cherry slush

there are also various monster flavors that i've tried but i can't really remember which flavors and how much i liked them.